You’ve read
The riotous ruin
In my blood
And by exquisite
Love, you’ve
Let it.
Riotous ruin suggests the emotional result of a chaotic life, @Aphelion.
You seem to suggest you have discovered a physician who employs love like a traditional "leech" - a doctor who bleeds to rid the patient of illness. The clouds of chaos, then, have hope of clearing.
To the extent that reflects actual experience, I am happy for you.
@sj_ashcroft2 thank you