By the time I was 15 I learned I couldn't trust anybody. There wasn't anything I could say or do that wouldn't be made fun of or cause me to receive a beating. I could not be myself. Not only could I not be myself, but I had no way to express any of my emotions. I was simply not allowed to be human. I mean, I still tried, but was only ever punished. #childhoodmatters #abused #abandonment
For me, emotional expression was limited to listening to Dead Bodies Everywhere, Got The Life, Here To Stay, The Outsider, or any other song to which I felt such a connection. I know everyone else can relate to this. This was all I had. If I didn't behave, then I would be sent to a psych ward because non-compliance meant something was wrong with me. #childhoodmatters #music #childabuse