All of that to say:
Whoever you are, you should probably write more if you feel like it. Don't worry about "not being unique" or that you're "just copying something better". Write *especially* if you feel an outsider, intimidated by better writers, "not really plugged into the loop".
Your set of influences and interests is probably weird and varied enough that whatever comes out will be strange and new and uncopyable - even more so if you felt distant and on the fringe in some way.
I got my calculator. It comes with a 200-page manual. https://mastodon.sdf.org/media/q6q-6gHNIwjriPYGC1M
Are you a #gopher person? Then have I got a read for you:
It seems to be a good time to share the words of Cameron Kaiser on the contemporary relevance of Gopher.
I just created my first gopher file since about 1998. I'm digging the nostalgia and simplicity of creating a gopher phlog.
Lynx browser and Gopher are great for those on limited mobile data plans and/or slow mobile internet. http://termux.com
@tomasino This might interest you. GNU Make as a static site generator. https://oneofus.la/have-emacs-will-hack/2018-03-06-using-make-for-generating-static-websites.html
Text Obsessed. davebucklin.com
"I appreciate SDF but it's a general-purpose server and the name doesn't make it obvious that it's about art." - Eugen Rochko