Year summary, huh? Ok.
This year was VERY bizarre for me.
Because of my failures I couldn't pass to the next semester on my uni, which meant I was close to be expelled - so I've started searching for a job. I had first (and for now) only job interview and after it I've found a job very quickly. Rather unusual one - programming for mainframes, fortunately in ANSI C which I already knew. So, I've fully devoted my time to the job, so I could not think about my studying for a while. [1/n]


While I do not regret it, focusing only on a job has a very big con: I mostly stopped caring about studying. I've just couldn't focus on maths anymore.
Thanks to maintaining this status quo until December, ironically I'm even more close to be expelled from my university, because I've repeated second part of Math. Analysis and I still can't pass any single exam from it.

Of course fear about my studies was always sitting in my head, which heavily impacted my free time - and this hurt my hobby.

I didn't really do anything creative this year. I haven't learnt anything practical (not counting slightly better coding skills). Despite earning enough money I constantly feel that I've simply wasted this year.
Next two months will show, if I will be able to break through last two missing subjects or I will drop out of this crap and limit my own programming career to less interesting things similar to what I'm currently doing.
Anyway, happy new year! Hope it will be better than this one. [3/4]

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@BluRaf Don’t stress yourself out too much - you’re not limiting yourself just because you figure out academia is not for you. Many people are quite successful despite or even because of dropping out. Luckily the IT industry is one that does not care about certificates too much.

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